Whispers
whispers angst in broken syllables at the sky
electric words flung sporadically towards God
in a stream of random pleas
intensified by longing and need
blue eyes freeze crystalline
A frown etched on her face,
she gazes listlessly into the night.
Les etoiles sont illumene dans le ciel,
a zodiac glowing in the sky.
Choked by society's corset,
her figure is emaciated
and she is drained of color.
Opaque,
not yet transparent.
She wishes the breeze could blow her away.
shoulders heaving mutated humility
humbly shrugging a raging sorrow
contradicted by indignation
This is my prayer
i am more than meets the eye
hungry for nothingness
starving for invisibility
disappearing in order to be seen
disappearing... to be found on the other side of reality
floating somewhere between myselves
searching, and finding cold confusion
drifting from life to life
finding solace in emptiness
wrapped in a rigid smile and unforgiving eyes
- Ren
By Kira [from Perfect Illusions]
i wish i remembered
what it felt like to be free
pure high superior
encased in an ivory tower
sending forth magical gifts to the world
produced out of the nothingness that is myself
i wish i remembered
the feeling so close to flying
borne aloft on the wings of Her approval
given the gift for one more day
given the sanction, the permission to exist, to draw breath
now i feel i press too heavily on the earth
i take up too much space
i ask too much and deserve too little
and the world weighs me down
its sugared excesses seeping into my every pore
soon i'll be lost in it entirely
it's out to defeat me
they are
the meddling busybodies who want me to be immobile
inferior
and entirely
THEIRS
i must resist this assault on my freedom
i must be strong
i must be true to my only protectress Ana
i must be the me who I truly am
Kira
Somebody's Arms
Smashlee128@aol.com [perfectillusions]
the rain falls from my eyes
and i look around for the closest thing of comfort
but all i find is the pain of an aching heart
tears of despair fall onto a life of lies
hiding under secret cries of help
i don't think you can understand,
and i don't have enough strength to find out if you do
and some days my teary eyes can see the sun
a light in a darkened mind finally sets in
that's when i need somebody to come to me
that's when i'm ready to close this half opened door
but as soon as hope walks past me
i turn my head and close my eyes
my courage walks out of my soul
and i'm left standing alone, once again
somewhere twisted in acceptance and love
is the thing i'm looking for
and just give me a few more days
because i know, yes i know, it will come
the rain of my aching heart finally hits me
i actually lost what i was looking for
so now my eyes stare off into the distance
hoping to find something i can run to
i never wanted any of this,
i grabbed too much, i swallowed it whole
in time it came and in time it will go
but i need Somebody's Arms to take me in
I need that beam of hope to walk past me again,
that light that lights the whole i have inside
i am ready, i can feel strength beat in my heart
but in a hopeless mind feelings can deceive
long time ago i wanted a change
and now that i have it, i don't want it anymore
all i ever wanted was lost
in a story that has the wrong ending
days come where i know that i am Okay
and those days always seem to go,
exposure is like looking fear right into its eye
but fear itself is the only thing we should fear, right?
you once said for me to come to you,
whenever i needed, whenever i like
here i am, can't you see me?
i just need your Arms to take me in first, again
will you walk with me, be my light
but i don't want to do this to you
you don't need this, i don't deserve your comfort
now i'm lost with or without your Arms
those tears of despair will still fall down my face
and my broken heart will try to push them away
in time, Oh yes- in time i will be exposed
and come to think of it
right now- that is the only thing i'm searching for.
